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The Struggle

After being diagnosed with a rare chronic pain disorder known as Complex Regional Pain Syndrome over 22 years ago, I struggled for years to find balance and accept my new normal. I liked the old me. The fun-loving me that enjoyed camping, hiking, and playing volleyball. You see, when health challenges turn your life upside down and you can no longer do the things you once enjoyed, you lose a piece of yourself. We, as people, tend to identify ourselves based on what we do. When introducing ourselves we describe ourselves based on things such as where we live (I’m an American. I’m a Kentuckian.), our job (I’m a teacher. I’m a doctor. I’m a police officer.), organizations or groups we associate ourselves with (I’m a Christian. I’m a veteran. I’m a member of a club.), and things we do for fun (I’m a skier. I’m a golfer. I’m a runner. ). When health issues take these things out of our lives, it’s Like our identity has been stolen and we no longer know who we are. We grieve the person we once were and feel lost in our own bodies.

After struggling for several years with chronic pain and who I was, I realized my past life of hiking and playing volleyball was probably over. I began doing craft type activities and found a new love for painting and knitting. I was beginning to accept my new normal, when gastroparesis entered the picture. I could still paint and knit, but now I couldn’t eat. My favorite foods…fried chicken, biscuits and gravy, spaghetti… they all made me vomit. My weight began to drop quickly, I became weak, and my legs cramped. I watched as my fingers and toes began to look a grayish color and my skin became formable like playdough. Again, I began to struggle. I didn’t know the pale sickly woman in the mirror looking back at me.

New doctors were added. A picc line was put in so I could be hydrated with IV fluids at home. A gastric stimulator was implanted to help my stomach work more normal. I saw a dietician. Gastroparesis, like CRPS/RSD, does not have a cure. The doctors treat the symptoms in an effort to improve quality of life. This time I adapted to my new normal a little more quickly. I’ve accepted that fried chicken, biscuit and gravy, other fatty fried foods, fresh vegetables and fruits, foods high in fiber, and spicy foods are probably never going to be a part of my diet again unless I want to be sick after eating. I’m learning to make my own veggie burgers and meat substitutes using various overcooked vegetables, protein powder, and gastroparesis friendly herbs. It’s not what I grew up eating, but I’m learning to like my new, healthier food choices.

Over the years, I’ve come to realize that life is a series of events and if we want to make the most out of life we must be flexible and willing to try new things. We have to learn to let go of the past and embrace the future. Just this week I found out my recurring urinary tract infections are probably being caused by a bladder that doesn’t empty properly. I don’t know what will become of that. I’ve just started seeing a doctor for it and more testing is scheduled. I’m also having recurring ear infections that don’t want to go away and am scheduled to see an ear, nose, and throat specialist. I’ve accepted that whatever becomes of it all, I’ll deal with it as it comes along. Yes, I know there will be more struggles as I try to adapt to my new normal once again, but this time I feel more prepared. I’m not worried about what might happen. I’m just going to enjoy the moment and live life as it comes.

Yes, when you live with chronic health issues, life is a struggle. However, your attitude and how you approach those struggles plays a huge role in the enjoyment you get out of life. You can choose to live in denial and try to run and hide from your problems or you can face them head on as they come and problem solve to find ways to live life to the fullest with those health conditions. Me, I’m choosing to accept my new normal and live the best life I can no matter what I have to face. I know there will be more struggles ahead and I’m sure there will be times of grief as I lose my identity and have to find myself again. I’ve learned that no matter how weak my body may seem at times, that weakness has made me stronger as a person.

For those struggling with new health conditions and the grief associated with not being the person you once were, I encourage you to continue to move forward. No, you may never be the person you were before, but there’s nothing wrong with the new you. You may have to do like me and find new interests and hobbies, but the important thing is that you keep moving forward and striving to live the best life you possibly can. You may feel like your life is over, but it isn’t. You’ve just come upon a road block. With time, you’ll find your new path and continue through life in a different direction. As hard as it is to wade through the process of grieving our old self, the thing that has helped me most was meeting others who are traveling down the same road. Their courage and strength helps me to continue to look up and move forward. I hope I can inspire someone else to do the same.

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Quitters Never Win, Winners Never Quit

Growing up, I frequently heard people say, “Quitters never win and Winners never quit.” It has taken me several years to fully understand what that statement means. In life, we all face a series of challenges. We must choose to either stand up and face the challenge head-on or to turn and run. Often, we are tempted to throw in the towel or wave the white flag and surrender because we think the battle before us is too hard to fight. However, most of us end up choosing to stand and fight.  Especially when the challenges facing us are health issues.

When I was diagnosed with a rare chronic disease known as Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy as a fifteen year old, I knew I had to fight. The doctors said there wasn’t a cure, but I was sure I would get better. I went to physical therapy and completed my home exercise routine to the best of my ability. However, I wasn’t seeing improvement and I kept getting kicked out of PT because my insurance wouldn’t pay. I’m not going to lie, it became discouraging.

Then came all the sickness. Daily vomiting, weight loss, and tiredness made it even more difficult to fight. Finally a diagnosis of gastroparesis was made. I was determined to do anything I could to be healthy and feel better. I changed my diet, saw a dietician, and had a gastric stimulator implanted.

I’ve had a pretty successful life. I graduated high school and college with honors. Despite my health conditions and illnesses I also managed to earn a master’s degree from college. Despite those moments where I felt so successful, I still sit here today in a wheelchair, eating baby food. I wish I could work and live what most people consider a “normal” life. However, CRPS/RSD and gastroparesis have taken a toll on my body. I don’t have the energy or strength necessary to work. Some days, I do good to get out of bed. However, there’s one thing CRPS/RSD and gastroparesis can’t take from me and that’s hope. I still wake up each morning and fight because that’s what warriors do. Each morning I hope for a better day and I do my best to make the most of the situation I am in. No, it’s not easy, but I realize that if I give up, I’ll never beat these monsters. So, I’m in this battle to win. I fight not only for me, but also for my fellow warriors and those who will later follow us on this path. So until I draw my last breath, I will continue to fight!

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CRPS/RSD Awareness

November 6 was Color the World Orange Day for CRPS/RSD Awareness all over the world and the month of November is CRPS/RSD Awareness Month. I saw my doctor that helps me manage my CRPS/RSD on November 6 and we talked about it being awareness day around the world. We also talked about me not being physically able to work right now because of CRPS/RSD and gastroparesis. He encouraged me while I’m not able to work to start a blog or something like that to share my story, inspire others, and connect me to the outside world. I told him I have a blog, but I hadn’t, posted anything on it in a while. (According to WordPress, it’s been two months since I’ve posted anything.) I explained to my doctor that I just hadn’t felt up to blogging. Over the past two months, I’ve been on antibiotics every other week. For some reason my immune system is down and my body isn’t fighting off anything. Since July, I’ve been treated for diverticulitis, a kidney stone, multiple urinary tract infections, shingles, mouth sores (yeast infection from antibiotics), and an ear infection that doesn’t want to go away.  That is in addition to my gastroparesis, CRPS/RSD, migraines, and polycystic ovaries, all which I have lived with for years. My doctor told me he thought I needed to blog. He asked me why wait. He said people don’t want to hear the story once you are all better. He told me I had so much to share and I needed to be sharing my story as I live it. He said that I could help others facing the same battles by sharing my story and showing them they aren’t alone. So, I am going to try to do a better job and update my blog a little more often, because he is right…I do need to share. Although I’m not sure how sharing my daily struggles is going to help anyone else, reading stories written by other warriors fighting chronic health conditions does help me.

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So, what have I been doing for the past few months? Good question. Like I said, I’ve been sick from some kind of infection pretty much nonstop. I was advised to stay home because my immune system isn’t fighting. For the most part, that is what I’ve done. I’ve spent many days in bed feeling horrible. However, I had my tablet in bed with me and it was my door to the outside world. I watched as friends and family roamed the world. I saw adventures taking place as friends took their families on vacations and cruises and family traveled coast to coast. I continued to watch as officials around the world declared proclamations and agreed to light up bridges and buildings orange for CRPS/RSD Awareness. Most of the places I’ve seen pictures of are places I’ve never been because my health conditions limit my ability to travel.

I decided to try to help raise awareness, so I contacted my local officials and asked them to make proclamations (which they did), I started sharing awareness information, I colored my hair orange, I set up a booth at a local elementary school, and I got sick again. If you see me out and I don’t shake your hand or give you a hug, or if I do and immediately reach for the hand sanitizer, I’m not being rude. I’m just trying my best to stay as healthy as possible. If you don’t see me out at all, I’m either in the middle of a bad CRPS/RSD or gastroparesis flare and not physically capable of being out, sick with something else on top of my chronic health conditions, or trying to build my strength back up because of one of these two things. Life can be a struggle, but I refuse to give up. While I may not be feeling good today, I know better days lie ahead. Better days may be few and far apart right now, but the better days are what keep me going.

So for those of you following my blog who are battling your own health conditions, my advice is to take life one step at a time. Don’t look ahead at days, months, and years. Take time and enjoy the little moments in life. There’s nothing wrong with planning ahead, but don’t get down on yourself if you can’t follow through with your plans. I know that’s easier said than done, but we need to stop blaming ourselves for things beyond our control. Life has a way of pulling us down at times. Often we have to do a cost benefit analysis. Yes, going out and spreading awareness may have taken a big toll on my health and energy, but those children are our future doctors, nurses, and scientists. Sometimes the benefits outweigh the costs. Who knows, one of those students may find the cure. Until then, we’ll keep battling. We are warriors and together we are strong.

AwarenessThere may be specific dates set aside to raise awareness of our invisible and rare health conditions, but we are very aware of them every day.  I encourage each of you to continue to share your story with others. If you aren’t sharing your story, I encourage you to start sharing it. I must admit, this blog has probably done me more good than it has anyone else. We must continue to share because as my doctor said, there’s someone else out there that needs to know they aren’t fighting alone.

 

 

Posted in Chronic Illness, Complex Regional Pain Syndrome / Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy, Gastroparesis, Invisible Illnesses, My Life, Rare Diseases

Absent

The struggles of living life with complex regional pain syndrome and gastroparesis are always present on the good days and the not so good days. I’ve not written on my blog the past few weeks because sometimes the struggles try to take us under.

The past two months have been difficult for me. I can honestly say that there have been several times over the past two months that I thought I might be facing the end of life. On top of my CRPS and gastroparesis, during the past two months I’ve had a kidney stone, a urinary tract infection, fluid in my ears, diverticulitis, several migraines, and shingles. I realize my daily fight against CRPS and gastroparesis causes dehydration, sudden drops in blood sugar and blood pressure, and probably weakens my immune system. That’s the only link I can find between my recent health issues and my long-term chronic conditions.

I volunteered at a five-day camp in July and have basically been absent from life since. I’ve been out for doctor appointments and tests and to go to the store for food and supplies. On several occasions, I’ve just asked my family to pick up what I need.

I’ve spent most of my time the last few weeks in bed. Not feeling well takes its toll on the body. Not feeling well for weeks at a time really takes its toll. Have I slept all that time? No. I’ve done a lot of laying with my eyes closed and thinking.

Life isn’t easy with sickness. I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about how hard I have tried over the years to hide my illness. I thought I needed to be like others to fit in. Honestly, trying to hide my chronic conditions has done nothing except leave me exhausted and miserable. I’ve realized over the past few weeks that there is nothing wrong with being sick and there is nothing wrong with allowing others to know your sick. I’ve realized that I didn’t choose my chronic conditions and there’s no reason I should try to pretend they don’t exist. I’ve learned I need to embrace my life the way it is and enjoy what I can of it. I’ve also learned to let go because I can’t do it on my own. If someone wants to help, I need to let them. It’s not that I want help, it’s that I need it.

So, while I may have been absent from my blog and public view, I’ve been very much present in my life. I’m slowly learning to embrace my life as it is. I’m realizing that I need to be the person I am and quit trying to be what I think others want me to be.

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#GPPieFaceChallenge

Pie Face

 

Sorry blog followers, but my account will not let me post a video, so here is my gastroparesis pie face challenge photo.

I challenge each of you to take the gastroparesis pie face challenge and post an image or video on the social media site of your choice.

For more information about the gastroparesis pie face challenge visit their official page on Facebook. https://www.facebook.com/gastroparesispiefacechallenge/

Posted in Chronic Illness, Complex Regional Pain Syndrome / Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy, Gastroparesis, My Life, Rare Diseases

3 am

It’s not my usual posting time and honestly I’m not sure why I’m blogging right now. There’s not a lot of other choices of things to do at 3am, so why not blog?

Some may be wondering, why 3 am? Well, because I’m awake, dealing with nausea, vomiting, and pain. Let’s be real… sleepless nights are not a rare thing for those of us with CRPS and/or gastroparesis. Today has been a rough day. For the past couple of weeks I’ve been more sick. I don’t know why, I just have. It seems as if everything I eat is just sitting in my stomach. As gross as it may sound, I see what I eat twenty-four hours earlier, being vomited up undigested. I’m not sure if it’s just my stomach being extra sluggish or what. I’m also having muscle spasms in the area around the gastric stimulator battery in my abdomen. I tried calling my GI motility doctor today. I left a message. Maybe they will call me back on Monday.

I’m also having  some new joint related pain. It was my knee and ankle last Saturday. Today it’s my shoulder and wrist. I’m not sure what is going on with my joints. They feel like they are popping out of place. My primary care sent me for labs today to check for arthritis. It may just be my CRPS/RSD causing problems. I guess we’ll find out Monday when the lab results come back.

I realize this isn’t my normal blog post, but sometimes I guess it’s good to share the tough times. I’ve learned to put up a front and hide my trials from the world. As I told a friend from church this week, “Sometimes we feel like crawling into bed and just crying, but instead we put on our church face and tell everyone we are okay.” Well, the truth always finds you out and we all have good days and more challenging days. If we don’t share our challenges, people get the idea that we never have bad days. For me, rough days often out number the good, but no one sees me on those days. When I don’t feel good, I stay home.

I need this ever single day

There’s one thing that I can assure you of though, CRPS/RSD and gastroparesis can’t keep a good girl down. I refuse to give up and let chronic illnesses out do me. I know God is in control and He and I are going to get through this. We are a team and with Him, nothing is impossible. I may not be able to do many of the things I want to do because of pain and sickness, but that doesn’t mean I have to give up. I have hopes and dreams just like every one else. CRPS/RSD and gastroparesis may have changed my path in life, but they can’t steal my happiness.

For with God nothing shall be impossible. Luke 1:37.

 

Posted in Chronic Illness, Gastroparesis, Invisible Illnesses, My Life

Gastroparesis Awareness

I’ve been told that I’ve had stomach issues since I was a baby. I don’t remember being a baby, so I’ll take  mom’s word on that. What I do know is that from my childhood years on, I’ve had a vomiting issue that I had no control over. All my life, I assumed I was either allergic to or had an intolerance of many foods. However, about two years ago I found out I have gastroparesis. Now I know why I vomit so much… my stomach doesn’t empty. August is gastroparesis awareness month, so throughout the month I’ll be posting about my experiences with gastroparesis. I’ve met several people with gastroparesis, so I’m not sure how rare it is, but here’s some info.

Gastroparesis Definition

 

Posted in Chronic Illness, Complex Regional Pain Syndrome / Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy, Gastroparesis, Inspiration, Invisible Illnesses, Rare Diseases

Humor on a bad day…

The  past couple of days have been rough with my complex regional pain syndrome and gastroparesis. I’ve been more nauseated. I’ve vomited more than common. I’ve been in lots of pain. I’m exhausted. I’m not looking for pity… just stating the facts. When faced with these not so good days… which I’m forced to deal with on a weekly basis, I have to make a choice… do I lay in bed and cry because I feel miserable or do I find something to do to keep my mind busy. I’m not ashamed to admit that there are days I cry because I don’t feel like doing anything else. Some days I just sleep because I don’t have the energy to do anything else. However, some days I don’t feel like getting out of bed so I spend the day in bed with my tablet searching for inspiration. It never fails that Pinterest has something I’ve never seen before that brings a smile to my face.

Living with gastroparesis, I’m constantly having to defend my choice not to eat when I’m at church dinners, family picnics, and other outings where food is the main attraction. I know that if I eat certain foods, that more than likely I’m going to vomit. Many times, people want to know why I am not eating. I explain gastroparesis in as simple terms as possible and with as little detail as possible. While people are eating isn’t the best time to explain that I vomit nonstop when I eat the wrong foods or wrong amounts. While they are eating isn’t the best time for me to eat and vomit either. That makes for an award situation. However, some people persist and want to know more. So, I’ve grown tired of making the situation seem less complicated than it is. For a long time I blew my gastroparesis off as no bog deal, even though I knew it was. Now, when people persist, I give the details. They don’t usually ask twice. 😀 So, I explain it’s not that I don’t want to eat. When I eat fatty foods, fresh fruits and vegetables, meats, and food high in fiber, I vomit. Then I usually get a look of pity, which I completely despise, and am asked, “So what do you eat?” I found this picture on Pinterest today and while it may be referring to a gluten-free diet, I feel it portrays my gastroparesis diet perfectly. I don’t know from one day to the next what I can eat. A food that may be safe today may make me sick tomorrow. That is how my life works and I’ve adapted. I carry a roll of trash bags at all times because I never know what the day is going to hold.

#Hashimoto's #Autoimmune_Disease — Living Naturally Autoimmune

This next sign really made me smile. I was diagnosed with complex regional pain syndrome when I was fifteen years old.  I started having issues with gastroparesis in my early twenties, but wasn’t diagnosed until I was in my thirties. Many times, I’ve been told I’m too young to have the problems I’m having. For those who have told me that… this sign is for you. Unfortunately chronic illness does not discriminate based on age.

At 41 the doctor said you have the neck of a 70 year old! True story. Chronic pain doesn't end. I'm 55 and still disabled.
For those of you out there that are also facing chronic illness this one’s for you. While many people don’t understand what we are going through, we have to stick together and
hang in there. On bad days we need to reach out to each other and help each other along. On good days, we need to educate the world and bring awareness to invisible, rare, and chronic illnesses.
Chronic Illness - ones that aren't known by everyone or at all.

 

Posted in Chronic Illness, Creativity, Family, Gastroparesis, Invisible Illnesses, My Life

Life Happens

I clicked on my blog and realized it has been a month since I last posted. My last story was a sad one, but the month since then has been even harder and sadder. With a close relative having a brain bleed and a good friend suddenly passing from this life, it has been a stressful few weeks. I’m surviving though and I’m thankful for my tight-knit family and friends. We’ve supported each other through it all. God brought us to it and He is going to see us through it.

I did have some fun this past month though. My niece and I made a birthday cake for her sixth birthday. We made a Candy Land cake. We got the idea from Cookies, Cupcakes, and Cardio. I thought it turned out cute and it was very easy to make. Thanks Cookies, Cupcakes, and Cardio for the great YouTube video. We baked a sheet cake, put a layer of butter cream frosting on it, and topped it with candies. We followed the YouTube video, but my niece wanted us to add the people from the game board (Grandma Nut, King Candy, Mr. Plum, Queen Frosting, etc.), so we copied, laminated, and attached them to popsicle sticks to put them on the cake. We also made edible gingerbread man playing pieces by molding airheads candy  using the actual plastic playing pieces from the game.  We pressed the airheads on the playing pieces, cut away the excess candy, and peeled it loose. We ended up having to stick toothpicks in the playing pieces to hold them up because the airheads drooped when they got hot. If I had found a way to mold them out of the Wilton candy melts, they would have held up better, but I was short on time and didn’t get that figured out.  Everyone loved the cake and my niece is already trying to pick out her birthday cake for May 2018. LOL

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Today I took some time for myself and did some browsing on Pinterest. Self-care is important and I enjoy browsing Pinterest for decorating ideas, inspirational quotes, etc. I can’t afford to buy a lot of things, but I can make a lot of cheap decorations for my house. I must admit that the following sign made me stop and chuckle. Those of you living with chronic invisible illnesses can probably appreciate it.  I hope no one takes the sign as me being rude or disrespectful. I promise I didn’t have any specific person in mind when I saw it. I don’t consider any of my friends stupid. I just saw it and found it funny because I often hear people talking about how good I look even though my big weight loss was caused by gastroparesis starving me. Being sick doesn’t necessarily make us look bad.

May anyone with a chronic illness get a good giggle out of this

 

I’ll try to post more in the upcoming days about what life has been like the past few months with CRPS and Gastroparesis.

Posted in Complex Regional Pain Syndrome / Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy, Courage, Gastroparesis, Inspiration, Life Lessons, Rare Diseases, Strength

Broken

Yes but no one whats a broken crayon

I saw this quote on Pinterest a few days ago and as a person living with a rare and several chronic illnesses, it made me stop and think about life.

When you buy a box of crayons, you expect unbroken crayons with those perfect little crayon points. You don’t expect a box full of pieces of crayons. As a matter of fact, most people throw away broken crayons. I hadn’t really thought about it until I saw the quote, but broken crayons do still color, so why do they get thrown away?

Living with multiple chronic illnesses, I can relate to the broken crayon that still colors. Due to illnesses beyond my control, my body is “broken.” I have pain and weakness in my legs and feet and am unable to walk. My stomach doesn’t empty, which makes eating difficult. It also adds to my weakness and causes me to be tired. Sometimes, I feel like people treat me like the broken crayon. Maybe I’ve got it all wrong, but it seems to me as though I get left out of things and I’m sure it’s because people think I’m “not able” or “don’t feel like it.” Maybe they are afraid to ask out of fear of hurting me.

Sometimes I feel like I, like the crayon, have been thrown out because I’m broken. However, like the crayon is still able to color, I still have purpose and am useful. I may not be able to run marathons or win pie eating contests, but there are lots of things I can do and am good at. My ears work fine and I’m a good listener. While I may be physically weak, I’m spiritually strong and am willing to be a shoulder for others to lean on. I may spend most of my days in bed because I simply do not have enough energy to get up, but I can talk on the phone and send emails. I can also inspire others going though similar situations by blogging about my experiences. When my carpal tunnel and neck pain cooperate, I can knit, paint, and do crafts. I may not currently be physically capable of working, but I still have purpose.

Being disabled doesn’t make me useless, it just points my life in a different direction and gives me a new purpose.  Small chunks of broken crayon are often disposed of because they are difficult to color with. However, I have melted broken crayons before and used cardboard and plastic molds to form them into new crayons. Instead of putting them in the trash, I made new, often larger, multi-colored crayons. Just like crayons broken into little pieces can make coloring a little more difficult, CRPS and gastroparesis have made my life more difficult. Many of the activities I did before CRPS (hiking, playing volleyball, etc.) are no longer possible. With gastroparesis, I can no longer eat many of the foods I once enjoyed. Just like I took the broken pieces of crayons, melted them. and molded them onto new crayons with new purpose, I’ve had to take my broken life and put the pieces together in a new way to find purpose. I’ve had to find ways to adapt. I’ve learned new things, found new hobbies, and adapted to my new life. I miss my old life before CRPS and gastroparesis, when things seemed easier and life seemed less complicated, but I’ve come to accept my new life and continually look for things I can do to make life better, both for me and others.

If you are struggling with a new medical diagnosis or changing abilities because your chronic illness is getting progressively worse, I encourage you to keep fighting. Don’t give up. As chronic illness warriors, we must stand tall and stick together. Talk to others fighting the same fight. There’s strength in numbers. You may feel broken, but know that broken crayons still color. No matter how broken your life may seem, you are very important. You are loved. Your life still has purpose.

 

Here are a few more broken quotes I came across that I liked..

King David committed adultery & murder - he sinned big, but repented bigger - he is a model of what real repentance looks like - he wrote Psalm 51 as an agonized cry to God for forgiveness - God not only forgave him but called David "a man after His own heart" Like & Repin thx. Follow Noelito Flow instagram http://www.instagram.com/noelitoflow

Beautifully Broken Quotes | Broken clouds pour rain, Broken soil sets as fields, Broken crop yield ...